I think the hardest part of being a mom is the guilt you face. I always though I would be the perfect mom - didn't we all? My working mom friends have guilt - my stay at home mom friends have guilt! So I thought I would come here and unburden myself and maybe just maybe get a little reassurance. First a BRAG!!!! My beautiful daughter Brooke - her first week in a new school got a HUGE award today. We met with her teacher last night and she informed us that Brooke was being named "Cougar Star of the Week!" WAY TO GO BROOKE! I am sooooooo proud. We went through no less than 5 outfits last night trying to find something to wear. I wanted her to wear her new school shirt - every Friday is cougar pride day but she wanted to wear a dress. UGH! She is such a girlie-girl! We settled on a cute brown skirt and t-shirt. She has yet to wear the same outfit twice and is starting to run out of options. She is kinda freaking. Ok back to my mom guilt - I couldn't attend the ceremony this morning. I am 1 week into my new job and could not make myself ask for time off. We sent Nan as a proxy so she should have pics soon! Brooke was thrilled to have her grandmother there and Nan was happy to attend. Still feel guilty.
SO I mentioned not liking Kate's school. Thanks for the reassurance Denise - it was like you already knew what happened. I picked her up yesterday and there was an accident report waiting for me. Kate got bit. Bit bad! Every little tooth mark showed - it was red and swollen. I did NOT handle it well. I spent my lunch hour making phone calls trying to find out an alternative - they are ALL full. One school had the nerve to tell me that I should have put her on the waiting list before I got pg - that is what everybody does. Hmmmmmm never was pregnant - spent 7+ yrs trying - think they would have kept me on a list for 7 years? Nice. just where i want my baby girl! SO today i dropped her off again at the current school. Bad mommy guilt.
Things are crazy - super hectic. We are down to one car since the jeep's radiator blew up and we have had zero time to take it anywhere. We have been getting up at 5:30 every morning. Get home at 6pm. I cook dinner, feed the kids, give baths and have both in bed by 9pm. Then there are clothes to layout, laundry to do, dishes to wash, pets to feed and then about 11pm I stumble to bed, unless I stop to post a blog. We aren't really even getting any playtime in! Thank goodness for my dad - he is picking brooke up from school and helping with spelling, reading and homework - it is great for both of them. I think Brooke has found herself a hero. We are promising them a trip to Brookes favorite restaurant = Red "Robster" if we get a good mid-term report. But shouldn't I be helping with homework - mommy guilt.
SO here is the REAL story. I am going to be traveling more than i thought. Next week I leave for Dallas Wed about 6am and get back about 10pm on Thursday. Sure, I feel guilty about traveling but what I REALLY feel guilty about is the fact I am looking forward to it. I don't have to worry about a fussy baby in the back seat. I can eat dinner with 2 hands WHILE it is still warm. ANd when I go to bed at night (in a suite with a Sleep Number bed, btw), it will be by myself. No husband. No baby. No kid. No dog. No cat. Just me. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Mommy guilt? maybe.
One last confession. We just moved - things are obviously crazy and my babies have birthdays next week. I wanted to do superduper cute invites. Aunt Bootsy designed some cute invites using my wording. I am not even printing them. They are going out via e-mail. The party is next Saturday. Oh and it is a slip-n-slide party and I don't even have a slip-in-slide. Man, I am a bad mommy. Atleast I try, right?
2 comments:
I'm all about the mommy guilt. So at least you're not alone. Try not to freak out too much about the biting. Babies bite because they don't know any better. I was always just relieved that Lexi wasn't the biter. That's a whole new set of problems. Hang in there, and enjoy that suite.
par-tay in DALLAS!!! Enjoy the get away, it will make you appreciate your kids and husband even more when you return. I had the "mommy guilt" when I was in Austin for Draven's first day of school. He did just fine. Believe it or not... dad's can take care of kids too! maybe not as good as us, but they seem to manage.
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