I ate my cookie first

Today was a bad day, sometimes it is hard to be a woman, a mother, a sister, and a daughter. Sometimes as women, we put everyone first, 2nd or 3th and we, inevitably, fall last. Right or wrong, it's what we do.
I didn't make new years resolutions this year for a number of reasons. First and foremost, I feel as though I have changed in so many ways over the last 4 months, I don't know who I am somedays and I don't know what I want to be anymore. My whole life I always knew that I wanted to be a mom and now I am but what is next? What about my career, my friends, my other life? Where does being a mom fit into all that? How do I balance it all? Is it possble? I always thought I would be a "Supermom", afterall, I waited long enough surely I should have it all figured out by now. But I don't. So today, I have decided that I am going to take one day at time, I am going to make Kate and Jay and Brooke my priorities without forgetting to take some time for myself as well.
The last couple of days, I have been craving cookies. Chocolate chip cookies with nuts but I never stopped to make them or even go buy them. Tonight I did. I bathed and fed Kate and gave her her medicine, I picked up the house and made dinner for Jay and I. I kind of have a rule that I have always lived by, chores first. I went to a seminar where they called it "eating a frog for breakfast." If you "eat a frog for breakfast" or take care of your most dreaded task first thing, the rest of your day can only get better. Tonight, I did something I never thought I would do. I ate my cookie first.